How am I doing?
The morning Psalm is 57 which jumps into the contradictions of living that we all too well. What’s going on inside? Never just one thing; never simplicity. It’s complicated. We walk around with blaring contradictions: are we in trouble and about to panic or are we people of faith and confident trust in a loving God who “has our back” (I just watched “Blind Side” in which the phrase is thematic).
So, first we are conscious of our situation; we feel like the universe has it out for us:
6 They set a net for my steps;my soul was bowed down.
But that’s not the whole picture: the other side of the coin is that the opposition has it’s own problems too:
They dug a pit in my path,but they have fallen into it themselves.
At the same time, we want to confront the world of trouble as people of faith. At some level we really do not believe we are out there dangling by a thread over a bottomless pit; we believe and doubt simultaneously. So the confession we make is also:
7 My heart is steadfast, O God,my heart is steadfast.
There is an action step that needs to be taken. Faith, like everything else living, needs tending or it atrophies. We play a part in making the affirmation of faith real by our commitment to bend the knee, lift up the voice, worship the God we rely on:
I will sing and make melody.8 Awake, my soul!Awake, O harp and lyre!I will awake the dawn.
Turn off the news, close the lid of the computer, get quiet, and focus. God is in this with us – and of course the greater story is that Jesus has walked this very same path as well; we are not walking it alone, nor without help.